Twiddling my thumbs

I am playing the waiting game…

At my last appointment on Saturday, Doc S revealed that I had dilated 2cm but it’s not really an indication of how early Adik will arrive.. Could be tomorrow, could be next week.. Of course, I didn’t let that stop me from blagging a seafood dinner courtesy of my dad that night hehehe.. Fish, crabs, prawns, the whole works..

I went to work yesterday, filled out the leave forms and took the rest of the week off to wait it out.. Better to be bored at home than go through the uncertainty of who’s gonna send me to the hospital and if we’ll get there soon enough if labour starts.. I really don’t want to inconvenience anyone, especially as my immediate superiors have been pretty nice about everything..

The same cannot be said about the higher-up who has been quite clueless and inconsiderate.. I casually mentioned to his secretary about my early leave.. I think she passed on the message and now he’s scrambling as there was a management meeting this morning and I got a missed call from an office number on my personal (repeat, personal!!) line.. I know it’s not from the people in my department or my friends as they have promised to text first and will only call if I gave ‘em the greenlight.. If it was him, serves him right as he has ‘mengeram’ that pet project of his all this time and only moves his ass when he has a status report due… Which means we are usually given 2 days to make ourselves available for a meeting, brainstorm and come up with minutes and action plans for him to take into the meeting and mengeram further..

*tarik nafas*

Enough bitching about work…

Back to the waiting game.. Let’s see if this lil kiddo decides to make a grand entrance on Thursday or has to be coaxed out sometime next week..

Update then..!

Countdown : 10 days

*deep breaths* 10 more days.

In some ways, it kinda feels like my first time. I know I already have a 14-month old daughter but that was different. She was induced a month early, I had none of this “waiting around for labour pains with a packed hospital bag ready”. Adik has been head-down for several weeks now, everything is well.. At my last appointment, Doc S cheerfully bade us goodbye with “Next week internal exam ok, kalau tak sempat I’ll see you in the delivery room”.. It really hit me that I could literally go ‘pop pop’ any day now.. As if my ginormous size and limited mobility were not obvious enough.. Hubby is nice to me, although he does tease me occasionally by enquiring if I need him to call a tow truck to help me up.. Kureng kureng..

I’m agonizing over whether to take leave early or work right up to delivery.. Several ladies at the office had dramatic incidences where their water bags burst and amnio fluid gushed out.. Cam dalam movies.. Dah la both my managers are men and one of em is a bujang terlajak (I’m not sure how useful they’d be in such an emergency), I work in the Golden Triangle and my hospital is all the way in Subang.. As it is, I have 3 meetings scheduled next week for the various special projects I somehow got involved with and my monthly report due.. No worries about the report, although I am just going to sit in those meetings and tell them repeatedly “I am going on leave any day now. Please do not give me any tasks that would inevitably be left hanging and then bitch about it in my absence.” Failure to note and take evasive action would just earn you a big thumbs up and a “Padan muka” when your project stalls..

Adik did not give me any serious problems, although this lil one is definitely bigger than Alya.. She’s getting more clingy probably becos she can sense the impending arrival.. She can’t walk on her own yet but she loves walking around holding on to your index finger.. Quite the bossy missy, she bullies her atuks mercilessly by getting them to carry her or teman her jalan-jalan.. She still has hardly no interest in food and is painfully kerempeng but she’s super-active and happy.. Kiddie food that is, her eyes light up and she’ll go “Ma! Nak nak nak” when we’re having something else that looks interesting.. She loves books, can spend a lot of time flipping thru a book on her lap and has started understanding some simple instructions.. Alhamdulillah..

My mother is being her usual panicky self, worrying where to place Adik downstairs.. Especially since Alya is darned curious and very very geram tengok baby.. Tak boleh duduk diam at all so we can’t exactly put the baby on a mattress in the living room.. I foresee my mother cracking the whip when it comes to my pantang this time around.. I barely had 6 months after Alya’s birth before I conceived again so maybe she has a point.. She’s been bandying about the terms “peranakan jatuh”, “perut gelebeh” and etc a lot these days.. I am so dreading those 44 days.. Wish me luck and pray I have a relatively easy delivery..